I'm sorry Adam Yap.

Assalammualaikum. I hope you are reading this. I buat macam ni for our own good. I busy dengan study and college activities. I can't text you all the time. You said atleast wish you a good morning and a goodnight text everyday, right? But you tahu kan yang memory i sucks gila. I asyik terlupa jee nak text you. Bila pagi, I kena cepat2 pergi kelas sebab I selalu bangun lambat because I selalu tidur lambat. I study then terlupa. Lepas tu bila malam, I ingat nak text you lepas habis buat assignment. Then I ended up sleeping on my table. So, I terlupa lagi nak text you. Seriously I rasa macam ni tak adil bagi you. Mesti you rasa yang "Aku ni ada girlfriend, tapi macam takde je."."Dia ni untuk twitter ada masa, tapi untuk aku takde."."Dia ni lupa kat aku ke?"."Dia ni da ada lelaki lain ke?"."I felt bored." But, sincerely, let me tell you the answers of all the questions in your head. I ada kelas pagi, tengah hari and petang. Petang pula, balik kelas, kalau I penat, I tertidur. Malam, I study. Kadang2 tu I kena attend college activities. Not only in the weekdays but in the weekends as well. I twitter-ing pun kadang-kadang jee, kalau I boring and kalau ada kawan I mention I. Kadang-kadang tu I terfikir.."Kenapa Adam tak mention aku like the others ye? Hmm..maybe he's busy kot. Yeah, maybe he is." And I tak pernah lupa you. My mind asyik ingat you jee. Focus I kat study pun lari sekejap. Sometimes I tunggu u text I, tapi you selalu nak I text dulu. Kadang2 tu I text you, you pula yang busy keluar dengan family you kat sana. I tunggu you kot, kadang-kadang sampai pukul 2 pagi, but lastly, I tertido juga..I takde lelaki lain kat sini as my partner or whatsoever. I cuma ada kawan classmate lelaki. Kawan senior lelaki. Kawan satu kolej dengan I lelaki. And fyi, kawan perempuan I jauh lebih ramai daripada lelaki. So, takde maknanya I break dengan you sebab lelaki lain. Itu sahaja. I terpaksa putuskan hubungan kita sebab I rasa macam I seksa you sebab you ada girlfriend tapi macam takde. I tak nak you tunggu I setiap hari and ended up nothing happened. I pun macam terseksa juga sebab I nak kena fikir masalah I kat sini, my study lagi, my family and at the same time, I kena fikir about us. So, kepala I seriously, serabut gila. I'm so sorry. I really really really need a space to clear up everything inside my head. I'm sorry. I ingatkan I mampu bertahan. I ingatkan I can have everythings under control but akhirnya I admit it. I can't. I'm not strong enough. I did this for the best of us. I'm so sorry. I'm really sorry. I tak dapat nak jadi a super great girlfriend for you. I'm sorry, tak dapat nak laksanakan apa yang kita plan sebelum ni. Thank you for everythings you've done for me. I love you. Halal kan makan minum I. I minta maaf atas segala salah silap I terhadap you. Goodbye. Assalammualaikum :(

Sincerely,
Nadia Erena :|

Hey hey January :)

Assalammualaikum and salam sejahtera kawan kawan yang membaca semua. Hehe. Hmmm. Kali ni Nad tak tau nk cerita ape actually, just nak post something supaya takde laa "berdebu" blog kesayangan Nad nihh. Hahaha. Actually, apa nak cakap ehh? Hahaha. Cerita pasal currently punya situation lahh. Akhirnyaa ah settle da yuran & denda yang menyerabutkan kepala Nad dengan bantuan my lovely brother and my beloved buntal. Thanks to them, everything is settle now. Thanks a lot! May Allah bless you guys. In syaa Allah. Btw, I am applying for JPK (Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Kolej) Cempaka Sari at UiTM Seri Iskandar nihh. Today (19 Jan 2013) is diorang punya interview. Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, nervous gila. First time nihh pergi interview. Before this pun interview kerja takde laa nervous mana. Ehh jap! Nad kerja ade interview ke? Rasanyaa takde. Hahaha. Isi borang jee terus esoknya dah kerja. Haha. So, this is really first time laa Nadia? Yup! And I'm very excited and nervous sangat sangat! Sampai nak tercabut, nak terkeluar jantung nihh. Wish me luck ehh kawan-kawan. Wahai jantung please jangan berdebar-debar sangat. Sakit laa. Hahaha! Lagi nak cerita ape ehh? Hmmmm..haa! Nad da tambah lagi kenalan baru. Terdiri daripada seniors and beberapa kawan - kawan yang batch Nad. Kitorang kenal dekat MJK (Minggu Jalinan Kasih), ianya aktiviti khas wajib for student part 1. Memang best gila and diorang pun sporting, happening and gila-gila macam Nad jugak. Hahaha. Best kan? Best sangat3000x. Hahahaha. So, itulah yang terjadi sekarang nihh. Hehehehe. So, Allah swt telah menggembirakan hati Nad yang bersedih sangat-sangat pada last post hari tu. There's one more thing, its about Adam. He seems don't really understand my current life at UiTM nihh. Wahai my buntal, I really want you to know that. I've always got an assignment to do and always involves in college activities. I'm so sorry tak dapat nak entertain you selalu ehh.. I'm really sorry. I can't helped it. I also can't denied it. But, pease faham ehh. Please please please. Thank you so damn much sebab memahami. Satu lagi, I don't expect I'm going to entertain you everyday from now onwards. I'm sorry, but I will always cari masa untuk kita. I'm so sorry yee. I love you. Okayy, finished about Encik Buntal. Jadi sekarang, alhamdulillah..Nad berada di tahap yang setabil sekarang. Alhamdulillah. In syaa Allah, after this Nad akan lebih tabah daripada sebelum ini dalam menempuh segala ujian, cabaran dan dugaan yang datang dalam hidup Nad nihh. Aminn. Thank you Allah. I love you. Forever and always :)

Luv,
Nadia Erena :)