Depression Kills Me

Assalammualaikum and hello everybody.
So, what's everybody has been up to? Well, me? I'm fine. Alhamdulillah. Nothing great happens to me lately. So, Let's talk about depression. Lately, I've been reading a fanfiction and a story from wattpad. You guys know wattpad right? It's a website where people can create a stories or fanfictions for other people to read. Yeah..something like that. Okay back to the story, I was reading this story called "My Story". She was adopted and always feel depressed and keep cutting herself, harming herself. "Depression may be described as feeling sad, blue, unhappy, miserable, or down in the dumps. Most of us feel this way at one time or another for short periods." That's what i found when I typed 'Depression' on google. Well, actually I have a confession to make. I have that depression feeling. It feels like no one is ever like you, no one is actually want to be friends with you, you are not good enough for everybody, you're the most ugly person on the entire planet, whatever that you're doing is not right, everything you do will always goes wrong, you feel insecure, there's nothing will ever looked good on you, you feel like everybody hates you, you feel like you're annoying and disgusting to everybody, you feel very lonely and sad, you feel like you want to rip your chest and get rid off the pain away but you just can't, you're being judges for every single thing that you do, sometimes you feel like you really want to die by hung yourself up or just take a fucking knife and stab it on you chest or swallow a bottle of painkillers or sleeping pills and there's always people that talking behind your back and the most of the time, you just want to be alone and cry. I know what it feels like and it hurts like hell. For those who is experiencing this depression thing, I know you need somebody to talk to and I'm always here to listen because I'm searching for those who willing to listen to mine too. Just remember you're not alone. I'm here with you.

Lots of Love,
Nadia Erena :)

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#StoryOfMyLife ♥

Assalammualaikum and hello everybody :)
So, One Direction's new song called Story Of My Life was really goooooodd! I love it! It came out on October 25th. And I thought of sharing my own story too. I supposed to do this thing when the song came out. But, I was so busy working and stuff. Hope you guys understand. Hehe. Okay, here we go. :)
I was born on November 10th, 1994 at Hospital Mentakab, Pahang, Malaysia. I have one older brother, three younger brother and two younger sister. My biological mother passed away 13 years ago. Alhamdulillah I still have my father. He planned to go to Umrah next year. I have two stepmother but one was divorced 4 years ago. I'm not rich. My father works as a air-conditioner contractor and my mother owns a food stall. I'm doing a part-time job as a service crew at Sushi King to earn extra money to buy a new cellphone because my father can't afford to buy me an iPhone. It's sad but I still love him to death. I don't have a boyfriend because I guess I'm ugly and nobody wants me. LOL. I have really cute, kind, beautiful, smart, hot, gorgeous and lovely best friends in the world. They're Almaz Zulaikha, Nur Syaza Athirah, Shiera Mazlan, Siti Fazilah, Fatin Nabihah, Linda, Sufee Safruddin, Mazidah, Tuan Farah Syazleena, Nur Shahirah, Nur Fadilah and Zulaika Afni. They're always there when I need them. I can't imagine my life without them. I love them so much! Currently I'm studying diploma in accountancy at Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM), Seri Iskandar Campus, Perak. My life has changed since I know One Direction, 5 Seconds of Summer and Janoskians. One Direction taught me how I can make my dreams come true. 5 Seconds of Summer taught me to love myself and always making me feel beautiful just the way I am. Janoskians taught me to be myself and making life fun(ny) without thinking of what others might think. I'm so in love with these guys. They gave me a new term of the word life. Thank you. :)
So, this is a little bit of my life. Thank you so much for your time.

Love,
Nadia Erena :)